I Forgot My Bread and Fish

Why was it that when Jesus was feeding the 4ooo and the 5000 that all of those people never managed to bring provision for themselves? If you were taking your family or your child or even yourself out, wouldn't you think to go out and get the necessary provisions? And if some reason you hadn't, wouldn't you think of leaving a lot earlier so that you wouldn't faint on the way?

Or do you think that all of this happened so I could show my mercy to those people? That they would receive without having given anything? Or think of the little boy whose mom did have enough sense to pack him some food...he, a child gave away everything he had.

This is what I am asking my precious child. Give me what you have so that I can multiply it back with mercy and provision. I never took that little boy's house, or his dad's donkey. It was that he had open hands, and when I asked of him, he gave. You must be willing to give me all, but not in the way that I am in need to take and leave you penniless, homeless. It's in the way that I am the God of this universe...all is mine. It blesses me and gives me glory when your hearts are turned towards me unselfishly, ready to help, ready to give. But you see, that is my virtue. If you have that virtue, it is because you are my child and I have given you my heart.

I am always ready to give, ready to multiply like I did through my son. It is the condition of your hearts that I look upon to make that happen.

This was a miracle to test people's hearts. When I fed all of them, they wanted to crown me king right away...because I had met there need for a day? What I really wanted was for them to walk with me, to get to know me. To be devoted to me instead of their stomach's or their own needs. Do you realize how fast a full stomach will become hungry again? How fast needs can change? But if you stick with me, I will provide for it all. By first for your heart, which needs my spirit feeding it.

AAAHHH...BREAK LOOSE!

Therefore I say unto you, What things soever ye desire, when ye pray, believe that ye receive them and ye shall receive them. Mark 11:24

New levels of freedom. Not only have I removed you from your distant past I am creating a future for you far beyond your own expectations. The reason why I often take you from the expected path is because I want to show you who I am. I need to get you alone...away from yourself, your expectations. I create a place for you to be open to me....and then I show you my goodness. Oh my goodness. Oh so wonderful. I desire that you would see through your circumstances into my intentions. I am a GOOD father to you, I have so much to tell you.

See me through the eyes of your past, of your expected future and surely you will miss me, because I am here with you now even as you are reading this. Can you feel my breathe on your face, my warring companions by your side, my eyes burning with a holy jealousy and fire to reach you, to touch you, to know you. ...That you would know me.

I do not wait on some wimpy sideline in anticipation. The pressure is on. I am here now. I come victorious and full of passion and love for you... That you would turn and see me, feel me, touch me. Hope in me and darkness is lost forever. Hope in me and death is gone. Hope in me and you will find your true self, the dreams and the visions of what is here now and what is waiting to come.

This holy love is like a dam waiting to break over you. To burn you with holy fire and make your skin bronze and golden like the stars in the sky. Burning like my eyes that you could never live through seeing if I did not veil myself. Oh, but I am here. The time has come when I will come like a roaring lion. I will devour your enemies and breathe my breathe of life into your chest. You will no longer suffocate but become acutely aware of a whole world, a whole reality of a kingdom for you to exist in. Come, I will show you these things. Just say, "Yes Jesus." Come Jesus.

You're Weak When You Wake Up

don't panic. i'm with you. there's no need to fear for i'm your God. i'll give you strength. i'll help you. i'll hold you steady, keep a firm grip on you. isaiah 41:10...the message

The world is trying to stay awake. Always buzzing, always busy, always wanting.
I want you to rest. The grim realization is that when you are weak you will rest. When you are sick you will rest. The strong see no need for rest, the healthy want to "go about it."

Another shift in the paradigm- be strong and rest. I give strength to the weary...but I also give strength to the strong. I am talking about God strong; where your weaknesses become strength because you give me the authority to overcome them.

Let me be your Popeye...let his spinach be your prayers releasing my strength and authority...

it hurts to grow roots

Surely he took up our infirmities and carried our sorrows, yet we considered him stricken by God, smitten by him, and afflicted. But he was pierced for our transgressions, he was crushed for our iniquities; the punishment that brought us peace was upon him, and by his wounds we are healed. Isaiah 53: 4-5

The pangs of the heart that leave you feeling lost can lead you to me. Precious child, let me take you in my hands and comfort you. There I will sculpt away the jagged edges...
If you have done something because of me, or because you want me to be full to the brim in your life, you will drink the cup of sorrow at times. Things that could of been but are not because I had better in store for you. You have been saved a lifetime of pain. So do not dwell on the past and all that lays there-dwell on me here and now. But if you choose to go there (to the past) know that I am there too-and I have redeemed all. No dead leaves there. They have decomposed, providing nutrients to the soil which nourishes you now at this very moment.
I know sometimes you have to look back to grieve-to see the dying of the leaves, of their falling and scattering, and slowly rotting away. Sometimes I even take you there. But don't dwell there. See the new life, the new fruit which hangs on your branches. The roots that have grown deep in the prevailing winds.
I am sorry that you feel sad.

Mercy

It's Sunday morning...Easter morning. Ressurection life and power available to all who seek me. It is a gift-a perfect gift. But if you take this life freely from me I am going to ask you to use it. Sometimes, many times this will be painful as your soul is stretched, your mind, will, and emotions being comformed to the new spirit I have given you. You know how painful this life can be. You can deal with your wounds on your own...or let me heal them. It was the Father's will that, "by his wounds, we are healed." That caused me great pain as you know. But part of my reward for the pain that I went through, my sacrifice on the cross was that I get to see you healed and delivered of every affliction, every disease, every wound. Sometimes it may feel that being on the earth means that there is no relief from the onslaught of pain. Fresh pain every day. But I make each morning full of new mercies, as the song goes. You will endure. And when you see me face to face, your war-torn, shell ridden face will be shining like the sun. You are clean and white as snow.

Healing is my children's bread.

Those bones can't breathe without me!

So I prophesied as I was commanded. And as I was prophesying, there was a noise, a rattling sound, and the bones came together bone to bone. I looked and the tendons and flesh covered them, but there was no breathe in them. Ezekiel 37:7-8

There are some people in this world that prophesy hot air and not breathe. This hot air comes out of their mouth and smothers and chokes the ones that breathe it in. It in not life giving or life breathing. It is flesh breathed, only capable of creating a structure in which its skin would wrap around you and choke you to death! That is why I entreat you to live by the spirit. You as people are capable of choosing to live in the flesh or in the spirit. The same person could prophesy hot air one day and then my life giving breathe in the other! Think about that. The more you come to know me, the more you realize the cost of your hot air. Come close to me and I will breathe upon you such life.

A tree in this polluted world continues to produce oxygen for the world to breathe. I want my people to be like that. Are you in a place where the air feels tight and constricting? Come and seek me, ask me for a new infilling of breathe that will come and bring life and oxygen to your surroundings...to the people that I LOVE. The thing is, once you have breathed in my air, my life, the counterfeit hot air becomes detestable to you. It is no longer able to fill your lungs, and you begin to suffocate. So you cry out to me for my breathe, my spirit to come and fill you.

I want you to adapt, to mature. The more mature the tree, the more life breathing oxygen it produces.

Now think about this. There is not even life without me. I give life to people that produce hot air because I want them to find the truth, I want them to find me, Jesus. I want them to realize that life before me was starving to their lungs...but now they can breathe in the air of the spirit. Like how a baby is born and takes it's first breathe!

The Great Restorer

Your people will rebuild the ancient ruins and will raise up the age-old foundations; you will be called Repairer of Broken Walls, Restorer of Streets with Dwellings. Isaiah 58:12

It is easier to renovate then to rebuild completely. Often my people give into the mentality to demolish and then rebuild before I do. I am patient in my building...and the tools and materials I use are good and perfect in my sight. I demolish when the people fail to listen that things are crumbling and dangerous for them. I always speak to my people and warn them of the danger of the crumbling, of the desecration of the things that hold them up and keep them safe.

It is in my virtue to be a protector. When I come into your life, by the power of Jesus and by his blood sacrifice I give to you a new spirit...but your mind, soul, will, and emotions I will renovate. For each of these things, led by your new spirit you must willingly place in my hands. Often I speak to my people about houses. This can mean many things; a heart, a ministry, a relationship. I can make a shack into a castle, a drybed creek into a great river through my spirit...which is now within you. I am the great restorer. Thriving, whole and new are the things that I give you. If you see something in your life, or in the body that does not look like this, then it must be turned over to me to be renovated.

In culture right now there is much talk and expense, T.V. programs and such about renovation. In your life I will expense and go to great lengths to do the same. That is just a manifestation of what is happening at greater lengths in the spirit as people willingly turn their hearts and their lives to me. Except I do what what no man could ever do, and by my spirit I make all things new.

Ruby

Gold there is, and rubies in abundance, but lips that speak knowledge are a rare jewel. Proverbs 20:15

Why do you so often take things into your own hands? How is it that you think that your hands are big enough to hold all that you carry? Your hands are actually like a sieve, pouring out precious things that I might carry, should you give them to me.

All that I desire you to carry are the precious gifts, the precious jewels that I would give to you. You may see then that you are holding a ruby in your hand, but I will see every facet, every aspect of this gift that I have given you. As your heart longs to bless me you give me back your offering, your precious ruby as it were and I will shine my light on it. And in my glorious splendor you will see every facet, every distinction that I have made for you and given to you, and we will share it together in intimacy. I desire this for you today and also for my bride. A token of my love to you precious one.

What is this?

How precious to me are your thoughts , Oh God! How vast is the sum of them! Were I to count them, they would outnumber the grains of sand. When I awake, I am still with you. Psalm 139:17

What is God's voice and how do we hear it? These entries are written as I hear them. They are written as the Spirit of God speaks to me. This is what I hear God saying to me personally...let his gentle voice speak to you as you read these words and fill you with his presence, his peace and his joy...